I MARRIED MY BEST FRIEND

OK so I married Nathan Love September 19,2009 which I can honestly say was the best day of my life!!!! The wedding was gorgeous and the only thing that could of been better was to have 2 people there and to have one help plan it! She is amazing! Its unfortunate what has happened but at least things are looking up and going soooooo much better now! I came up with having them at our photo shoot so we have pictures with them so in someway they were apart of it! I love the two of them and it broke my heart with what happened but its better now and that's all that matters I'm so open with them its great! But back to the wedding we got married at Regency Garden @ 6:30 PM and it was gorgeous. We did what was called a first meeting which was wonderful so we could have the pics of our bridal party and each other and parents with light! Still Life Studios was great along with our DJ which rocked our world! We had a dusk wedding/night and it was out of this world I wish I cold relive it OVER and OVER and OVER!!!!! Our wedding was one of the best if not the best EVER!!!!! I can honestly say I'm a wifey and THE MRS MRS. NATHAN D. LOVE and couldn;t be happier! If you have myspace request m as friend the link is http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=190142400&albumId=2048215 and facebook same thing request me as a friend link is http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=322560&id=870670380 too see the fun minus 2 people but there will be pics of the people missing cause I LOVE THEM and want pics with them N0 MATTER WHAT they are great people!!! I do want to say I'm sorry truly from the bottom of my heart and I truly wish I would of given more thought into it and put differences aside and just let you guys come!!!! You guys are great and I love you and I truly mean that!!!!!At least we'll have pics of me and Nathan in our dressed up stuff and they will be fun ones!!!! I'M SO SORRY FOR EVERYTHING!!!! YOU ARE FAMILY AND I WILL DO EVERYTHING TO KEEP PEACE AND LOVE BETWEEN US!!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!! NATHAN YOU ARE A GREAT HUSBAND AND WERE A GREAT TEAM!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE WHAT IS HEAD FOR US!!!! I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!!! WE ARE MR AND MRS NATHAN DANIEL LOVE FOREVER AND ALL ETERNITY!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!

In Loving Memory of my Mommy

So I was sitting here missing my mom so I decided I would leave her what I was feeling on her facebook page and start a blog. I want to thank 5 people in particular and they know who the are. I know I don't always show the appreciation towards you guys and I do apologize for that! I love my Mom no matter what...You can judge her but she was my best friend and my Mom. I had a relationship with her most daughters wish they had! I do want to say once again THANK YOU to those 5 people that helped me the most I do from the bottom of my heart appreciate everything you have done! I was sittng her missing her and it dawned on me I should tell her in words how I feel so I did with a clear mind, body and soul. So here it goes...

Mom I miss you more than I can even say!!!! You were and still are my best friend! I don't know what to do sometimes...I know your watching over me!!! I know you were at my wedding one of the biggest days of a daughters life! I missed you more that day than any! I love you with all my heart!!! You were and still are a big part of my life! R.I.P Mommy!!! I know your in heaven with your mom and Grandpa Earl enjoying everything and you not suffering anymore but there's a selfish side that I wasn't ready to be without a mom! I will always love you with everything I have! I'm a good wife because of you and I strive to be the best I can be...BECAUSE of you!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!! I MISS YOU AND I WILL NEVER FORGET THE GOOD AND BAD TIMES I HAD WITH YOU!!!! YOU ARE THE BEST MOM A CHILD
COULD ASK FOR!!!! I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT!...!!! R.I.P I CAN'T BELIEVE ITS BEEN 8 MONTHS AND 1 DAY!!!!! IT FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY YOU WERE SHOPPING WITH ME AND JUST HANGING OUT WITH ME TALKING BUT YOUR IN A BETTER PLACE AND TIME WILL HEAL MY WOUND BUT NEVER MAKE IT GO AWAY!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!! YOUR THE BEST MOTHER EVER AND I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT!!!!!! I KNOW YOU WATCHED OVER MY WEDDING I FELT IT!!! IT WAS A CALMING FEELING EVEN THOUGH I WANTED TO BALL MY EYES WHICH I DID A FEW TIMES BUT ITS OK I CAN DO THAT!!!! I KNOW I WILL BE LIKE YOU ...AND I LIVE EACH DAY THINKING BEFORE I DO ANYTHING WILL MY MOM BE MAD IF I DO THIS AND IF THE ANSWER IS YES I DON'T DO IT! EVERYONE MISSES YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY BUT FROM A DAUGHTER TO A MOTHER A MOTHER DAUGHTER BOND AND LOVE WILL NEVER END NO MATTER WHAT I KNOW YOUR ALWAYS WITH ME AND I THANK GOD FOR THAT!!!! R.I.P MOM 12/12/1964-02/22/2009 @ 2:09AM YOU WENT TO BE WITH YOUR HEAVENLY FATHER WHICH IS EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANTED AND YOUR HAVING THE TIME OF YOUR LIFE. I WILL SEE YOU SOMEDAY WHEN MY DAY COMES. THANK YOU FOR TEACHING ME TO BE A WONDERFUL WIFE! NATHAN IS A WONDERFUL HUSBAND YOU WOULD BE SO PROUD! THANK YOU FOR EVERTHING AND I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!!!

I don't know where this came from but I knew I had to do it! A mothers bond is one of those things that last forever!!! Once again I want to thank those people that were there. They gave me tips on how to cope better than I was. I was down a dark path but they were there to tell me its not the way! Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

I love you guys more than I can say! R.I.P MOM 12/15/1986 THROUGH 02/22/2009 @ 2:09AM

I LOVE AND MISS YOU MORE THAN I CAN EXPRESS!!!